After 3 years working in KK, I almost lost everything
(including myself) that I built in KL as a consequence of trying to fit in.
Funny how everyone tells me people from the big city are cold and exceedingly
competitive. I believe that to a certain extent from personal experience.
However what made my heart stone cold today aren’t those people. It’s the
people closest to me, around me and I thought I can always count on, hurt me
the most.
CK left, Ah lek left, Nicky left. Each of them left with
their ambitions and goals ahead. They’re inspiring. Not because 3 of them are
unemployed now, but it takes a lot of guts to step out of the comfort zone of
pink and strawberries while I’m the goodie two shoes on the face sucking up to
people I fear will leave me in this place that every cell in my body rejects.
Every now and then I found a reason to stay. The very same
reason made me want to run away. Sometimes you need a shove that pushes you far
enough to never return.
I’m going back. I still want to believe what I used to
believe in. The difference is, I’ve to get myself all equipped for whatever
that comes into my life. It will be the next best thing.
2 cents:
Hanging there babe.. Your pain is just weakness leaving your body; you'll grow stronger :) my 2 cents
;) *wipe away tears*
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